Waiting on God ... trying to see my way up to the next level, insisting on Him showing me where to go from here on the book about Healing.
I have had some small directions .... the Spirit pressing me to get back into the Word of God on a daily basis.
But a depression sort of settled in on me, and I haven't felt very connected to the Lord, or very motivated lately.
I been feeling kind of dead inside ... like I have nothing to give, by way of ministry, right now.
So... I get a phone call, someone needing deliverance.
I didn't know how to say no, so... I agreed to help. (though I felt reluctant)
As the time got closer, and I still felt very inadequate, I expressed to my wife that I didn't really feel up to doing this ministry. Although deliverance ministry is something I actually know quite a bit about, you don't want to confront demons when you don't feel spiritually up to it.
Not more than 5 minutes after telling her this, (contemplating whether I should tell them to seek help elsewhere ... realizing I didn't know where else to refer them to, and knowing I just couldn't walk away from someone asking for this kind of help) the phone rings... and guess what? Another person asking for help with deliverance from demons!
A double whammy!
Thanks God!
I knew I was being put in a bind, intentionally, by God.... or rather, I suspected His hand in it.
I can't quite see my way up to the next level, spiritually speaking, yet ... but its like God is saying, time to stop sitting around, and at least move forward.
I can't see a way up to the next level on the mountain yet, but I can walk around on this level, and perhaps in doing so, I will discover the pathway up.
I performed the two deliverance ministries ... one will be on-going, in stages, ...the Spirit showed this to me, and it was confirmed by anorher, but the initial meeting went well.
And the second person in need had a clear victory the other night.
I feel somewhat more alive again.
And now... my book on healing.
I got this sense that the healing chapters is just a part of a larger book.
This morning, I opened up Microsoft Word and typed the following book title:
From the Church
to the
Kingdom
A Call for Revolution in the Restored Church and every sect of Mormonism
I touch on this topic in the book God's Strange Act, but that book is mainly about the tribes and the gathering. This is about making a fundamental change in how we view the Church, and how we move past the past, and the traditions of men, and enter into the Kingdom - or, rather, manifest the Kingdom in our lives. I looked at this, and wondered, is this really what I am supposed to do?
My mobile phone rang. A person from Detroit, who I didn't know, had found my phone number somewhere on the Internet, and called to tell me how much they had been blessed by the book God's Strange Act. The first things she wanted to talk about is the topic of how it is "the end of the Church Age, and the beginning of the Kingdom Age" and what that meant. She talked about this being one of the most important things in the book. I had only touched on this in that book.... but it is would be the theme of the new book. I am stunned, thinking, what are the odds that I would get this new title for a book, and get this direction, and then have a total stranger call me and tell me how important this concept is.
I took it as a Godincidence - or however they say it ... what might seem to be a coinidence, but of a divine sort.
So ... I am moving. at least.
could use your prayers.
Blessings!!!!
Doug





